life is beautiful

spastic

2006-08-18T00:02:00.000-07:00

hello.

maths was hell outta here man. i totally hate the paper tt was set. let me tell u the probability of o lvls maths part 2 of being this blardy difficult. it is like, 1/50! i'm totally like pissed cus the paper format was exactly wad i practised but 5times much more tedious + diff. wtfh. i'm utterly disappointed with myself okay. ):

anyway, lizzie, mel & may are leaving for uni end of august and hey, this is for you two,
LIZZIE, MEL & MAY: have a great time at london(mel & may), lizzie(usa) for the next few yrs! GOOD LUCK LOVELIES!

i'm so gonna miss my evil smart-jackass twinnie. oh gosh. lets talk abt loneliness and depression. wtf, i dun like this.

mom is driving me nuts with her potential,maximising,relaxation shit man.she's trying to get into the "i'm so funny can you believe it"mode tt drives me crazy! help. HELP. but at least she has promised to accompany me for mass this sunday,not forgetting the other randomised TWO extras.

"i'm still stuck on the fifth floor!", yo lionel. great one! (:

mom's add

2006-08-16T19:08:00.000-07:00

my mom's going crazy. totally.
her activity mode of "relaxation" is driving me nuts. omfgawd.oh bother, but i'm glad at least my mom tries to make me laugh! i love my ma. (:

okay, i did something crazy last nite and well i wont be that dumb to write it here for you to laugh!

afew more days to the end of prelims! OH HELL YEAH!!
i'm kinda saving up to buy a new ipod nano in black.i knw, all tt crap shit abt my creative zen, but i can give it to my dad or smth. (:(:
oh wait, maybe i'll wait for christmas and see if anyone else can purchase it for me? YEAH. fat hope lar.
maybe godma/grandma or someone will give me some goodwill present or smth. i'm still hoping!

ok,i've gotta go. bye

prelims

2006-08-06T18:19:00.000-07:00

shucks! my practical is due in 2hrs.
oh shucks.

anyway, was flipping through my travel itinery for the americas when i noticed the fking amount of sightseeing places i'll have to visit in 13days.oh great!so much for a holiday.tsk.
we'll be gg to boston, nyc, philadelphia, new england, ontario, montreal and blah blah. and in 13 days is like, total kill-joy.wtf.

godma's son is back from boston for the summer hols which will end somewhere in 3weeks which means he will be leaving soon agn?oh man.she was so darn elated when she told me yestd tt he was back like finally?!wee.so happy for her. (:

better be off studying now since PRELIMS are important. yeahyeah.

goodday.

"Amusement to an observing mind is study."-Benjamin Disraeli

pig market

2006-08-05T20:28:00.000-07:00

YAY. i simply lurve sundays!
why? CUS there's mass with godma. (:
i certainly hope she'll enjoy the triple chocolate crunch i bought specially for her.

havent been updating oh-so-regularly but i'll promise i'll update everyday(well...) after the os.oh yeah,it seems to be forever till os actually end. :O
guess most ppl are kinda excited about the grad nite at some spastic cheapo four star hotel arnd chinatown?! oh yeah, wadeva.the only perks i can actually think of are,
1. cantonese food![yumms]
2. my friends.
other than these, grad nite doesnt really appeal much.if you ask me,i'd rather be on the plane to new york/boston/toronto or should i say,enjoying myself already!, than be in some weird unknown hotel wasting my time being like some utter bimbotic trash or something.ohwell.some ppl are just so lucky tt their parents wont force them to go and even not allow them to attend!wtf,my mom has to be all excited for me and practically force me to attend this "OOH."boring activity.

i shldtn be like grumbling and all since i'm blessed by god. OHLALA.thinking of godma makes me think of all the little blessings that i've received from god. (:
god touches our life in different ways.things do happen,and i rather believe that god has a purpose for putting our lives in this certain situation or ways.after all,when a door closes,another with bright promising light will open for us.enroute to everything.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.-I John (ch. IV, v. 18)

freeze

2006-08-05T04:18:00.000-07:00

okay, i'm back for just this one post since mom isnt around NOW.
yestd nite was utter fun with jazrl, tirana, matt, jie kai & nuts. spent some time studying, but ended up drinking much more hot choc. den expected. ):
just collected my white skirt and now i'm ready for national day celebrations. gosh, why must red + white be compulsory this yr?! OHWELL.

this is such a random blog, i'll better make use of time to study right now.

OUCH.
reality bites.

PRELIMS ARE COMING!

HIATUS

2006-07-23T02:15:00.000-07:00

on a long break until further notice!
i'm finally seeking godma's advice.

ON HIATUS

"every goodbye is the birth of a memory."-dutch proverb

adieu!

happy together

2006-07-22T20:01:00.000-07:00

i believe in miracles.
i do!

mass with godma just now and i guess the homily was specially tailored for ME (tts wad godma actually said.tsk) although i disagreed initially, but the following part was kinda true. i am rather stressed up already,which of course is a bad thing! tsk.

anyways, got my confirmation cert yestd and i must say thank you to my cat. teachers, lena, benson and much more! THANKS ((: its so perfect and it was actually printed on expensive photo paper! wow. my cat. teachers are the best!

was supposed to go shopping with dear ursula(who's back from cheena) yestd/today, but due to the massive flu + fever, i cant go anywhere much less shopping. tsk. sorry urs! ):

okay, ltr tuition at aspen! gtg and eat lunch cum breakfast now!

CIAO.

.

REALITY CHECK BY edwinaisabel & her fav. godma ((:, for edwina.
1. not eating enuff.
2. not sleeping enuff.
3. stress level uber high
4. studying like mad.
5. music (piano) is stress-relieve, but to a certain point, it creates unwanted stress
6. RELAX
7. 3mths to os
8. endure for the 3 mths to new york
9. endure cus its gonna be christmas.
10. HELLO? WADS WRONG WITH YOU?

to the craziest loved woman of my life,
thank you for being there when i needed you most.you are oh-so precious! ((:

hi god

2006-07-21T19:11:00.000-07:00

hello god! though i doubt u can actually hear/see me writing this, but please, shower some LURRVVE on me and destroy all the virus & germs within me. (:
this is like the fifth time in the yr tt i've been sick! please.

daddy's back! yayness.

When the storms of life are raging
Lord stand by me
When the current pulls me under
Lord stand by me
When the rising waters toss me like a ship upon the sea
You who rule the wind and water
Lord stand by me

Chorus
Stand by me, stand by me
Lift me up from the restless sea
When I am lost
When love can't be found
When no one cares
Lord stand by me

In the midst of persecution
Lord stand by me
When my enemies surround me
Lord stand by me
When the tyrant wields his terror and the armies wage their might
When the darkness overwhelms me
Lord stand by me

god is indeed great. i love him! (:

2006-07-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

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ponytail lies

2006-07-20T02:08:00.000-07:00

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ask if you're permissable for the password

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uber tired

2006-07-19T01:57:00.000-07:00

something tt was not supposed to happen, happened last nite.
i still dun think its my fault. i probably never will. why shld i admit something i havent done?
I AM STILL NOT GOING TO ADMIT A FAULT WHICH IS NOT MINE.

school was okay i guess. nth much,as usual.
compassed with sil & jo. (: ate at mac's before heading to the library.
read some fashion mags tt were friggin outdated, but who cares la. head for ps at arnd 3.15pm.
got my loopnyc bag! yayness.
(:

i need some slp since tmr there's no test or wadeva. though there's amaths.
yf is coming for emaths at 7pm!its great, i wanna see what she looks like.

;lovely.

SUNDAY IS DRAWING NEAR! (:

"The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want."-Margaret Young

super

2006-07-18T00:03:00.000-07:00

i feel tired yet hyper! RAWR.
school today was kinda okay,
english paper was *ahem* comical in the sense tt the questions were completey HUH? sorta thing. -yawns.B.O.R.I.N.G
thereafter came physics but since c.c. din come today, nootan rai came and it created somewhat an uproar within the class. tsktsk. TSK.
had the aussie competition which made me feel DROWSY. double boring as usual.

havent done physics tuition hmk which is due in an HOUR. lol.
cant wait for dad to come home so tt SHOPPING SPREE AUGUST/JULY2006 can be done (:

loop nyc's tmr! YAY. my bag is coming tmr! (:
not fergetting emaths tmr. bummer. tsktsk.

i've been saying tsktsk more than anywords this wk.

okay gtg GOODDAY!

"A happy woman is one who has no cares at all; a cheerful woman is one who has cares but doesn't let them get her down."-Beverly Sills

costume sized 8

2006-07-16T03:47:00.000-07:00

life gets so boring when the ppl arnd u starts doing the same thing as u do. COPYCATS. i hate them. havent they have an idea of their own?
this kinda sucks. totally & completely. tsktsk.

went for g2 last nite and i've friggin gotta say, well, g2's the BEST CHOIR ever (:
such a blast and the choice songs were gd. a pity i culd really enjoy the songs cus of my stupid gums. they still hurt badly and i'm on painkillers now since the doc says so. ):
HELP. i dun want my gums to hurt. this is all thanks to mrs. stinkyy poopy braces. tsktsk.

sometimes its so difficult to let go i suppose. but i guess when the sky looks up again, everything wld b alright.
p.s: stop thinking abt alrighty nXXX.? love ya much. takkaire. (:

;sometimes, life is not wad u've expected it to be. ((:

copycats

2006-07-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

i hate copycats.
;end of story.

vera amour

2006-07-12T04:00:00.000-07:00

OH LOOK! THE SKY IS BEAUTIFUL RIGHT NOW!
the light azure dash across the setting sun makes a wednesday night just right. (:

i am just so tired of her! i hate the way mom has to pacify me into liking her. HMPH. idun like it! sucks bigtime! you, RUINER OF ALL GOOD THINGS.
just to send to her,"it is better to be defeated on principle than to win on lies."-arthur caldwell.

oh yes, i RANT.

yestd's investiture was so-so, you may say i'm biased or whatever, but i think ours was much more, organized? okay, council's history but the memories are fresh i guess (:
the new blouse is wonderful, i suppose.

i'm hooked onto a new series, the emma harte cronicles. its just so exciting, i cant get my eyes (or hands) off it. wonderful masterpiece by barbara bradford taylor. excellent brillance.

italy! italy!

i love this! germany 2006

insensitive

2006-07-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

ITALY ITALY ITALY!

you know, its a marvel how some ppl can be so insensitive to others' feelings and everything, and just continue crapping like its very funny to do so. if you cant give others a break, why shld others go along with your mood as well? i dun think its funneh to poke fun at others just becus u think u're very funny. that's a major turnoff.
if u think its fun to irritate me at this moment, dun regret if i bite. i'm not exactly in the mood to joke or anything. so for pete's sake, quit disturbing. fk off.

tmr is the most dreaded yet exciting day, council investiture. why?
dreadful: i dun want to stay till 4.30pm (in other words,6-7pm) in school playing GAMES. I dun like the sound of it, but whatever. since its the last day.

i dunno why i'm feeling irritated, but i'm.

"true friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient; it's about being there when it's not."-elizabeth foley.
;are u a friend?

i'd like to believe what i see.

swat that

2006-07-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

the maid is fking annoying!in less than half an hour, she has already knocked my door for at least 16 times! wtf.
this is bloody irritating!

anyways, godma was damn funny during mass larh. hohoho, i do enjoy her company very much (:
seriously i dun care anymore about what ppl have to say abt my uploaded pics cus its MINE anyway, so i'm gonna post my fav confirmation foto uphere.

confirmation;may06

the makeup can be seen so CLEARLY gosh, its kinda freaky. but anyhow, i still her (:

tmr's the WC last match, i cant wait for this mad escapade to be over! -rejoices. ITALY ITALY!

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.-mahatma gandhi.

starshines & moonlight swims

2006-07-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

hi, just dropping by to comment that you blog is cool n unique (:

statussy

2006-07-08T06:20:00.000-07:00

is it alright to feel this way?
i'm lost.
i'm lost.

watched a very inspiring show late last night and i have gotta say, even though it was the last episode,i still felt,well, enriched. life's not about giving up and losing hope but rather picking yourself frm where you left off and starting all over. it has an after-effect sorta thing on me, hence i feel lost. :( the theme song keeps replaying in my head and its really nice.
i sincerely hope they wld replay agn.

LOOP NYC. the darling bag!

did some online shopping and found this really good bag for sale. loop nyc! its a steal for a new and nice branded bag, wtf! yayness. mom's gonna be so jealous cus the tote she bought was like $115 though there was a sale (hell, yea.) and its PLAIN WHITE with some white decor. tada.

the familyyyss are at aunty fung's hse for some blah blah party right now. been there but came home earlier cus i wanted to experiment with smth. i dun really enjoy those party, i suppose. everything is so hee-haa perfect of sorts but u can sense the strong gust that it seriously isnt what it seems to be. that's why its not nice to stay for long at tt place for long. ohh hail dee.
dont get the wrong idea tt i hate my family, but its just. well,hard to draw a straight line across to actually tell you what i feel. :(

i'm feeling kinda lost. is there anyone who can tell me what to do? which direction should i head? gosh cus i have absolutely no idea whats happening anymore.

; prelims AUGUST!

this kinda sucks.

life isnt what always pleases us isnt it?

moderato

2006-07-06T22:52:00.000-07:00

dentist in a few mins. time. okay, so school's out for the wkend. ((: MOE EXCEL FEST so school ended friggin early at 12pm today. hurhur.

;howwwyyy
she blew off the top! gushes.

postergirl

2006-07-04T01:57:00.000-07:00

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

Favourites
Favourite Colour: black
Favourite Food: triple chocolate crunch
Favourite Song: bad day
Favourite Movie: parent trap
Favourite Sport: ice-skating
Favourite Day of the Week: SUNDAY!
Favourite Season: spring, winter
Favourite Ice Cream: ben and jerry's

Currents
Current Mood: tired
Current Taste: bland
Current Clothes: black tank, fbts
Current Desktop: my com? lol.
Current Toe nail Colour: pinkish
Current Time: 5.17pm
Current Surroundings: study table, window, bed, blah
Current Annoyances: maid making some juice and its so NOISY.
Current Thoughts: sleep! ORAL TMR!

Firsts
First Best Friend: cant remember? gwendolyn i think.
First Crush: cant remember.
First Movie: alice in wonderland? lol.
First Lie: i dun remember. :(
First Music: erm. (?)

Lasts
Last Cigarette: pfft. tsk.
Last Drink: yakult grape
Last Car Ride: home from school
Last Crush: none
Last Movie: dvd counted? bewitched.
Last Phone Call: kieran (:
Last CD played: huh.

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: nope
Have you ever broken the law: nope. GOOD CITIZEN. lol.
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny-dipped: nope
Have you ever been on TV: dunno
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: nope

5 things you are wearing: purple rubberband, black tank, fbt,nail polish, earrrings
4 things you done today: comp. study. study. eat
3 things you can hear right now: aircon blasting, birds chirping, LOUD CHEENA MUSIC FROM SOME CREEP IN THE ESTATE, children laughing, cylists ringing bells
1 thing you do when you are bored: sleep.
PEOPLE TO TAG! : EMILY, kieran, paul, nyoh, natee

massodine

2006-07-01T20:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY YOUTH DAY.

just came back from mass with godma. (: sat beside this litle kid who kept pulling my top, lol. everything's okay i guess.

i'm just bored, i have nth to do at all larh! tsk.

shangri-la's so beautiful i wanna stay at shangri-la hk the next time. ((: took many pictures as well. tmr's a friggin packed day for me, so much so for a holiday right? TSK.

goodbye

the line

2006-07-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

the line @ shangri-la was GREAT.
the decor was fantastic but the food was, 50/50. not tt gd. the main pt was the CHOCOLATE fountain, but the choc was utterly bitter yikes! had a fun time though! check out the friendster pics (:

hyde park

2006-06-30T03:49:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NYOH!
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY BEN. (okay,well..)

hi world. bye mars!ouch, reality bites.
i'm glad school's over for the week, at least. school's been kinda like a drag and tragic as well. adaptation to a habitat is crux factor for school. theres test like everysingle day plus mrs elan's amaths. :(

okay, so today's the second final last day i'm gonna be online, iguess? mom has threatened to confiscate the modem thing so i cant use it until god knows when. I HATE PRELIMS. i have to get into some jc for the first 3mths! if i dun mrs r. tan is sooo gonna KILL me. ohh no. its only like wad? 1mth to prelims. wtf.

i cant wait for the council investiture, partially i'm sad. yarh, i cant believe i'm saying this. and partially, I AM GLAD. i finally can concentrate fully on my stuffs and not have to stay back for empty reasons anymore! thank god.

tmr's ben's bday and i'm not buying or doing anything. (yarh, i love being evil. -smirks) so sunday afternoon we'll be gg to THE LINK @ SHANGRI-LA for lunch.YAY, chocolate fondue. (: YUMMS. ohdeeha. i cant wait yeett.

i'm glad my bible's come in just in time for bible sunday next week and YAY, i can make full use of it. i'm so holy right? i've been reading mrs. bible for the past few days to keep me alife. i'm gonna start reading it faithfully for inspiration. :)

okay, i'm gonna catch up with my bed, billy winks NOW even though its only like 7.13pm. billy winks is seducing me so much, i'm gonna slp on him (it?!) LOL. then at 10pm its hi! homework time. seriously, whats the point of youth day when u have loads to complete in just 1 day? wtf.

darkness comes with light. do you see it? I DO. (:

watch as saturn spins

2006-06-29T05:07:00.001-07:00

its raining! AGAIN.
how nice,
how sweet,
how exciting.
LOL.

i'm bored.

oral was great fun with the, whats her name? Mrs. Morrison i think. she was nice! she made my day by adding "you've read very well. good luck for your os." YAY. relieved (:

i 've got nothing to say. BYE.

watch as saturn spins

2006-06-29T05:07:00.000-07:00

dear god.

2006-06-28T08:49:00.000-07:00

~~hi god,~~
i know i shldtn have done that, but it was really getting on my freaking nerves. i dunno wad kinda test this is but i cant stand it anymore. she's seriously driving me nuts. i dun think i can be tolerant anymore. i dunno wad i'm gonna do, but i dun think i'm gonna be nice or patient towards her. i'm so sick of all her lies, sickening excuses and best of all, feigning ignorance. thats stupid i know, but i have to see her more than my mom. i hate it so much i just want this to end. please, make this end.

i need to vent. i need to.
this home, isnt a home anymore because of her existence. wadeva, i'm gonna think she's invisible, and she WILL be invisible. ~~I HATE HER. I DO.~~

why do these pathetic people even exist? they just make others' life miserable.

GET AWAY.

sleeply mine

2006-06-28T01:42:00.000-07:00

yawns. i'm so tired. must be the after effect of taking the damn yellow flu medicine. damn the medicine its so tiny yet dangerous! :(

I've finallty got my new bible. its so damn prewtty. (:

bye

CARTILIAGE

2006-06-27T05:10:00.000-07:00

today was a bad bad day with mrs. flu :( was sneezing none stop during the boring english paper. pfft.
amaths lessons with mrs elan is fruitful, but too long! today's for example, only gave us 5min for recess. wth! I NEED TO EAT! but mrs elan was nice, gave us time off finally when she realised we cudtn do anymore. :)
lit was 4periods=2hrs long. lit is fun but when its too long, it becomes sorta like a drag or smth. nope, I LOVE LIT. the timetable missus shld soooo get a life! :(
POP was okay i guess, somewhat reminds me of the extra mini XXXXS national day parade. the only part i liked was when everyone threw their hats/caps/headwear up gleefully. :) very beautiful and a rare sight. its time to part;the party's over.

compass-ed with merly & jo aft sch and kfc's was a riot! just horrific. anyway, bought sweets and rubberbands from montip. montip is such a disappointment! they didtn sell the ones i wanted anymore, but some ugly rubberbands. :(

EIGHTDAYS THIS WEEK IS SOOO DAMN BORING. wasted my money $$$$.

daddy is so nice to go all the way out to get me my fav ice-cream and some random batteries to get some stupid stuff to work. pfft. GUESSWOT, dad just drove off without ben this morning and gave him a damn thrashing for taking such a LONG time to get ready for school minus the breakfast part. ben so deserves it for being such an ah-ma, taking such a sickening slow time to style up. wtf la.

digi cam's my new pet.

its the life.

2006-06-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

THUMBS UP!
BEST WEATHER FORECAST OF THE YEAR 2006
BEST TAKE YOUR CAMERA DAYOF THE YEAR 2006
WEIRDEST DAY OF THE YEAR 2006

okay, first day of school wasnt as pleasant as it shld hav been. firstly, we are scheduled to have test EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY DAY OF THE WORKING WEEK. :( wtf.

tt's all for the day folks. i'm just too lazy to blog. :)

crux factor

2006-06-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

okay, so here i am, clocking in the middle of the night cus i cant sleep, YET.
i keep thinking abt the new digi cam i am gonna GET SOON. this is so annoying! pfft.

i'm hungry and sch's gonna reopen in 7 hours. NICEYY.
i love the new pics tt i just got from raymond tan frm hfc. everyone's so prwetttyyy (:
ILOVECON42006. WE SIMPLY ROCK.

here's a little one for you (: MY LOVELIE, before i go and catch up with mr. slumber;
the world's all round a beautiful place,
minus the disasters and wars
that trumatise us every single hour of the day.
be it our own personal shatters or worldly shatters,
whats more important is the heart and soul of the human kind.
you touched me,
with not your money,
not your possessions,
not your status,
but a simple kind sentence each day,
"hi, have you eaten?",
"hi, hows your day? it must be great.",
"hi, are you feeling alright?",
"i'm sure you are doing fine!" or
"oh, i guess everything's gonna be alright."
YOU, are so simple,
so beautiful,
so sweet,
you're my everything,
angel of mine.

(: i feel so good now. i feel as though this heavyweight has been lifted from me. (:

dear god,
thanks for all the marvellous wonders you've created, if not for these, i suppose, i wont even knw how to smile nor cry. (:
thank you for everything in my life.

good nite everyone! have a great start at school. yeah, right. (:

tall tails

2006-06-25T03:41:00.000-07:00

a few more hours till sch reopens :(
lost the freedom!

yikes;

I AM STILL WAITING FOR MY CANON POWERSHOT. wtf. :(

diana krall quizzes

2006-06-23T22:52:00.000-07:00

Was there something more I could have done?
Or was I not meant to be the one?
Where s the life I thought we would share?
And should I care?
And will someone else get more of you?

Will she go to sleep more sure of you?
Will she wake up knowing you re still there?
And why should I care?

There s always one to turn and walk away
And one who just wants to stay
But who said that love is always fair?
And why should I care?
Should I leave you alone here in the dark?
Holding my broken heart
While a promise still hangs in the air Why should I care?

the midnight's flu is getting the better of me. hidaho. its such a bright day i shld be out in the sun swimming/cycling/rollerblading or smth. but here i am, trying to take my medicine faithfully and getting some slp. :(

i cant wait to get my hands on a new digi cam i'm currently bidding for online. den i can happily say goodbye to the old one, which in my opinion, the photo quality sucks cus it cant take proper nice pics tt i want. 4more days of wait then.

"I don't want the public to see the world they live in... I want them to feel they are in another world."-walt disney.
its important to be immersed in what you are engaged in. (:

foodgrabber

2006-06-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

"what is edwina doing in the middle of the night?"
"must be the com."
"she shld be slping!"
"yar. but what can u do?"
"SLAP HER."

oh that, would be so fantastically NICE.
its the middle of the night alr. and i'm so not watching WC now due to hmwk. (: GREAT START.

i'm so hungry now i can eat up an animal of any size,excluding an elephant. less than 12hours and mom will be back frm malaysia! (: FINALLY.

MENU LIST:
-have lunch at GOODWOODPARKHOTEL
-have lunch at THELINK,SHANGRI-LA [prolly this wk or next (:]
-eat the entire tub of BEN&JERRY'S chocolate brownie fudge
-buy more FAMOUSAMOS butterscotch & pecan cookies
-pizza @ PASTAFRECA [!godma alert! (:]

see, FOOD. i can eat okay pangpang! (:

i've got great news, ben's chinese tuition teacher might be gg for MFTA on sunday! which MMMMEEEANNNS, i can see godma as well if i do accompany the folk, tuition teacher. (:
WOOTS i havent seen godma in like 2weeks cus of the clashing schedule,but i guess she's doing fine.
btw, the rain just now wasnt exactly nice, cus it ruined my entire plans for a long run. pfft. now if mom comes back, i highly doubt the possiblity of having a nice run. ): BOOZE. did some online shopping just now and i love the artiris clothing. gotta check the store out man. the designs are so, POOOFFYYY.

and oh yea, paul, I DRANK WINE.ALCOHOLIC WINE. see what i mean? i told u not to dare me to, or i'll reallie do it. godma's right u knw I TAKE ON DARES. (:

;lets see who dances well

oprah

2006-06-23T00:17:00.000-07:00

been reading up on oprah winfrey (: she's a great source of inspiration, after all, she made it possible to emerge beautifully out of her struggles.

"It doesn't matter who you are, where you come from. The ability to triumph begins with you. Always."-oprah winfrey

i hate the silence now, in my own house. just got off the phone with mommy dearest and she's in melaka now. HAWHAW. :( i'm ALL alone to myself.
i cant get hooked to the kindaichi last part of the doll show cus youtube's kinda gg bonkers agn.
ANNOYING! BOO! :(

currently shopping for a brand new top online, but all seems to be either too flowery or otherwise, unpleasant.

I NEED MORE CLOTHES.

status

2006-06-22T22:19:00.000-07:00

lonely. i'm so lonely. :(
i'm ALL alone at home now, everyone's out to melaka while i'm banned frm gg until further notice. :(

the kindaichi doll show kinda scared the hell outta me and nw i'm bloody scared la! tsk. i hate the part where the head just rolled off the person. yikes! :(

gtg. wanna buy pizza for myself. :)

HELP.

swatch kisses

2006-06-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

i love my new black sissly watch (: although it isnt the EXACT one tt i wanted, i dun really care. its MINE!hehehs.

i dun reallie want to care abt the whole godma-charade thingy anymore. just let anyone think wad they want or smth.godma's right to say sulking causes wrinkles, well, ULITMATELY. HAHAHAHAHA-evil grins*

i shldtn have gone for the council investiture rehersal just now, it was plain boring and, BORING. less than half of the council wasnt even present today, reherse wad? ayayayaya. ): BOO.

good news: everyone's gg to malacca/melaka(?) tmr morn and returning on sat so,
*no blood test!
*I CAN EAT PIZZA FOR MY MEALS.
*i can go for my night runs
*sat's FREE and EASY (:
but the bad news is,
*no g2! AHHH. :(

I'M SLEEPY.

queen of ships.

2006-06-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

so ben is back home. :( no luck.

mom, dad n ben will most prob be leaving tmr again for some resort in malaysia. YAY. double triple YAY. but the bad news is,i have to go for tuition myself. wth.

poor may's at home now cus she's just undergone a major spine op. last wk. :( i cant visit her yet cus she apparent needs plentiful rest at home, even aunty helene is not allowed in. :(
oh god, pray for may tt she'll get better :)

okay, gotta go! english hmwk is totally UNDONE (:

color me you

2006-06-20T22:13:00.000-07:00

kindachi is HIGHLY addictive! i've watched so many episdodes in just two days! AHHH. this is like the first time i'm falling deeply for a thriller. (:

oh hye.

my flu's becoming a lil' worse and it kinda goes off and on over and over again. oh wells.
i need some sleep desperately of course.

ltr gg to the airport to fetch dad and ben home.tskk. BEN. ben=pest

ta-ta

alfresco party

2006-06-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

time flies!AH! tmr ben's coming home. :( YIKES.

i've gotta admit this is a prettaye bad wk. :( well,well.
firstly, godma is gg for mass for the AGED,yes, aged this sunday so she cant accompany me.
:( awwww. her own godma's gonna be there, so yea.YAY tt means i have a god-grandma? haha.
secondly, i dun feel like seeing ben. :( ouch.
thirdly, ppl are sending me mails on friendster asking if mrs chan is my godma. which, of course, is so none of ur business(?!) though thank you for your very "kind" concern.

OH WELL. please STOP asking thank you.

unofficial

2006-06-19T01:30:00.000-07:00

i feel miserable inside. oh yes i do. :(

please. STOP asking if mrs d. chan is my godma. THANK YOU.
i would very much thank you.

;leave ME alone.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY (:

2006-06-18T08:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! (:

wad a day it has been! wheeyy.
sil's conf mass was HOT HOT HOT. i dun mean tt the ppl are hot, but rather the place was hot! practically burning, i shld say. and fr. augustine tay wasnt very nice by taking such a LONG LONG LONG LONG time to read the gospel :/ . well, at least sil has FINALLY been confirmed!
CONGRATS SIL! (:

So anyway, i missed the outing blah blah and spend the most "unbeatable" afternoon at TUITION. :/
evening accompanied mom to orchard cus she wanted to get some burberry clothes and i LURVE that burberry peach coloured soft tee with the words "burberry" engraved on it. AH. whooping $270! ta-da. the bronze coloured satin dress is va-va-voom! (: i want $$$. i need $$$. though kieran says the fastest way to buy all these is to find urself a monetary-fat husband like donald trump?! oh, i wld like to say REALLY. but, ANYWAY, when to DIN TAI FUNG for my lovely dinner with aunty as well. as usual, they serve fantastic chinese fanfare or FOOD-fare? LOL. **note to self: buy over din tai fung! quickly! AHHHA. (: **

i love desperate housewives to bits and pieces! (: i just LOVE that show! bree's my fav! (: i'm so gonna get dad to buy the first season's dvd.AHHH.

the opposite of love isn't hate. It's indifference. - bree (:

lets relive it in lipstick

2006-06-16T21:27:00.000-07:00

diana krall's good. her voice makes me think of soft christmas (: i like tt! wheeyy i'm spending my early afternoon drowning in her voice and song "popsicle toes" she's good! ohhh whee.

ltr gg to tampiness library to search for some lame ass book which cannot be found in compass or chengsan. pfft. wadeva lar.

gotta go. i'm bored. YAWNS.
further updates when i feel like?

BOOOOO. wisely's last episode. TODAY! YAY.

i love my godma. WHEEY.

lama

2006-06-14T22:59:00.000-07:00

hey ho, lets all say hi to ben the kay-po, aunty, stalker who reads my blog. LOL.
just re-painted my nails pinkish in colour cus the water made it fade or smth. anyhow, it was long and tiring painting! urgh, ohwelshhhs.

okay so the black trans bag came today! the postage was too big tt the postman had to ring to bell and ask me to get it myself. wad a nice thing to do. HAHA. anyways, i'm happy happy happy with the bag! LALLALA.so this morn woke up at like 6am and left for serangoon mrt at arnd 7.05am.i thot i was gonna be late so i starting walking quickly to catch the bus. stupidly,i was SO early. i reached at abt 7.13am. and the bus 107 was freaking packed with old folks lar! i thot tt i had boarded the wrong bus to chinatown or smth. lol. and anyways, got the ettusais pouch for a big fat bargain! LALALA. i'm so happy (:

i'm kinda freaked out by the movie omen's lil' boy. YUCK his eyes kinda like, freak me out? aeeeeewwww oh boy oh no.

gtg now since my nails are dry now. lotsa hmwk! AHHH.

week's hmwk!
*amaths 1 wkst
*emaths paper2
*geog paper 5
*physics tuition
*english summary
*english holiday hmwk.

help?!

i love GODMA! (: wheeeyyy

frostttyy

2006-06-11T00:33:00.000-07:00

i guess one stupid rain in the morning can just spoil ur mood for the entire day. RAHH.
just woke up from a deep slumber after returning from mass with godma. was supposed to go for g2's thang, but doc says its not advisable.blah blah blah so they wont allow me to go TODAY. :(

went for g2 yestd afternoon-nite and i have to admit, it was a FRUITFUL BLAST. met loads of ppl there and i guess wad benson said was right. confirmation is only the start of our faith (: I LOVE JESUS. (: cus he rocks!ARH.
attended mass twice this weekend and next week, if i can make it to the 8.30am mass then i'll be going for lyk, 3 masses tt kinda thing. crazy. but godma's reading next wk, so it depends on whether i can wake up tt morn. LALALALALA. i hope more ppl can go for sil's confirmation mass lar, or else it'll just be yunzhen and me, which is definitely PATHETIC and weird. :( and it makes me irritated if no one turns up and i'm gonna miss an event i've been waiting for this ENTIRE month. bleahhh.

anyway, i'm kinda annoyed tt everyone's making such a big fuss over some stoopid friendster picture larh. so STOP asking me and STOP making such a racket over nothing. seriously, my personal life has nth to do with you, no matter who u are. the friendster pic is like, so not ur business?!

i love my mommies MUCH.

drop

2006-06-09T01:58:00.000-07:00

i love u, u love me. just crazy about the barney song.

my mothers are so adorable (:

i love my mummies much!

PLAY

2006-06-07T20:50:00.000-07:00

RAHH.

its raining
its pouring!
the big fat jumpers wanna go out and play :(

godma's home;she's working
mom's home;she's working
no one's free to PLAY.

this stinks.

i love my mommies MUCH.

white fury

2006-06-07T03:47:00.000-07:00

this is madness!
this is madness!

ben has left! hurray! LEAPS.

woke up bright and early this morn to welcome this wonderful, bright and cheery day. left for the airport at arnd 10.30am from mom's office and ate at swensen's with dad and ben (: YUMMS. den send tt creepy thang off! HEHE.
mom and i hang arnd the airport together after such a NONG NONG NONG time. finally we cld just crap like we always do yea? hehs. had big time fun with mom at the viewing gallery. the viewing gallery's kinda smaller now (okay, prob. i hadtn been to the viewing gallery for a longlonglonglong time alr) and its annoying tt they did some arrangements tt divided the viewing gallery and the airplanes with a cafe in the departure hall. wth. spoiled my entire day. and so, there we were, snapping pictures and all in the midst of children and old folks! HAHA. was really fun!
went to the expo after tt with mom and went to the john little sale or smth for fun and we ended up laughing at the stuff for sale instead. the only thing we bought were the "lock & lock" lunch boxes or wadeva u called tt.wasnt very cheap but then agn,its cheaper than usual. duhh. its a SALE. expo thing was realllyyy funneh.
headed down to orange julius to grab a short bite n drink.man, the woman at orange julius was absolutely annoying and bitchy la! she kept slamming the blender onto the metal thing when this woman in front was like "please hurry,i'm in a rush" politely. and her tone was so friggin bitchy and sickening. she's got attitude prob la, BIG TIME.
i think godma's home already. YAY. (: and mom's at yoga right now. HAHAHAHAHA.but she offered to buy me mini toons sweets! how rare. the last time when i was in the hosp,she kinda came up with this really lame excuse like, "the chemicals present in the sweets with affect the medicine u took". "_" erm. okay. wth.

kays, that's all for the day!

i'm so happy! (:

love nuts

2006-06-06T05:02:00.000-07:00

less than 24hours and ben will be leaving! YAY. i cant wait.
it has been pretty much a slack and wait day today. shant blabber much cus i dont have anything to say right NOW.

:)

1moredaytoben'sdeparture;
2moredaystogodma'sarrival;

lovemuch!

2006-06-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

jeanette wanted me to do it. oh wells.

What were you doing in secondary school?
-studying. duhh.
-going for ccas. *yawn
-amaths.sucking at it.
-crapping!
-playing!

Five of your favourite singers / bands?
-bon jovi
-black eyed peas
-maroon 5
-coldplay
-lifehouse

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire?
-SHOP.ALOT.
-holiday! to usa/europe blahh
-bring my mom's' for a wild holiday (club med)
-donate money/invest
-buy a hot air balloon

Five bad habits?
-buying rubbish
-slacking
-laughing non-stop for no reason
-talk crap
-sleeping too little

Five things you like doing?
-shopping!
-going for holidays
-chatting
-reading. duhhh
-ice-skating

Five things you would never buy, wear or get?
-jap/taiwanese pinky and girly weird stuff
-voodoo dolls! DOLLS
-tattoos
-dye/rebond hair
-too many piercingss

Five favourites?
-god!
-my family!
-my godma!
-my friends!
-slacking

Five favourite things?
-ice-skating rinks
-ben & jerry' ice cream
-credit cards & money
-watches
-clothes

Five people to do this?
-emily
-clare
-dumdum
-yingxin
-paul

recover

2006-06-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

i miss dumdum.
i do.
i wish she was here with me now.

DUMDUM!

head hurts

2006-06-04T21:47:00.000-07:00

i'm having this bad bad bad off-on stomachache right now.its just so friggin sickening to feel fine for a while den the pain comes back agn. ouch ouch.

lesson today was a real B-O-R-I-N-G. i can just fall asleep and die in class.i'm totally like bored cus whatever we're doing right now is likkkee re-runs from her lessons last semester!and i wld'tn say it has been helpful AT ALL considering the fact we just do the hmwk she gives us. duhhh. :( shld hav just stayed at home and nurse the damn stomachache of mine.

ah. 2 more days and ben will disappear frm my sight yay! its a steal waiting for la. dumdum sms-ed las nite and sent this really sweet stuff to me! ohh how sweet :) just love her so much la. dumdum miss u so muccchhh! :'(

this wk is not just lonely anymore,but very tiring! idiotic. there's tuition like almost every single day and lessons agn.makes me uber irritated la.i nid to rest okay! urgggh.

ahhh my stomachache is acting up agn. gtg now. cya

dustbin

2006-06-04T02:20:00.000-07:00

oh my oh my, godma has alr left for bangkok alr! i'm so gonna miss her for these few days! :'( well, hope you enjoy urself godma! love you! she's so gonna enjoy herself, meeting xxxx and loads of shopping! lucky woman!

so here i'm after the stupid-ly boring tuition for like wad seems forever. went to buy sil's conf card first at kalms den went to eat lunch with dad and ben. mom was supposed to meet at parkway but she "forgot" and went home. went to buy the hp pouch thing! i totally forgot there was the GSS on and paid the salesgirl extra. lol. how embarrasing la. buuuuttt, the happiest thing was buying the white blouse! i didtn know tt the blouse had a sale thing too! YAY. so cheap 35 bucks only! smack down from the 60 bucks!great timing GSS!very happy with the sale. shld get more $$$ to shop (:
too bad dumdum's gone or we cld crash course and head down for a madd shopping escapade! imissdumdumrightnow.

next wk wld be the worst and loniest wk ever!everyone chooses to go on hols this week. of all the time during the june hols! pfft. no one wld b arnd to shop! wad PERFECT timing! URGH.
dumdum: gg for a short shopping spree is better than nothing dear! i admire!
oh wells, fly past the damn wk and everything wld be over i guess. wth. i have a bad bad bad migraine i shld just hibernate for the day or smth. yea like REAL. if there was no hmwk. OHHHHHH BAD HEADACHE.

i suppose i'll be all lonely like an old woman this wk then. i have to get mom at gramaphone to buy memoirs of a geisha dvd so at least i can watch or smth when i'm all AALOOONNNE.

ahhhhhhh! KILL.KILL.KILL!

woopiegoldberg-ion

2006-06-03T19:59:00.000-07:00

just returned from mass with my lovely godma (:
she's hilarious man, with the eating food rich in iron and liver function?! lols. life will be ohhh so boring without her i promise. love her!
i'm bored stiff now, waiting for dad to pick me up for tuition which i have not been to for abt weeks. gotta buy loads of stuff later:
-sil's conf card
-tt white blouse
-handphone casing
and bible!bible! yay.after months mom's finally bringing me to buy the bible she owed me (:
YAY. jeanette, at least u didtn go for no reason did it? we shld all just go forward and slap nathan next wk. >>> haha.
aye, now's that everythings back to the norm, i have to start completing my english/amaths/emaths hols hmk which is due tmr. THANK YOU SO MUCH. and wth, the stupid blogdates and time are all so wrng! wth. pfft.

dumdum*:enjoy ur holiday there alright?i knw u are so gonna enjoy ur hols with ****! ENJOY love!

abnormal doubts

2006-06-03T02:56:00.000-07:00

okay. the stupid dengue's off me now and hopefully forever.
the whole experience was undoubtly horrid and terrifying you wont want to go through it i promise. its just so,URGH. wld like to say thanks to all whom was there for me during this psycho-wrenching time of my life.
_WIPE THE SCREEN_

okay its all over now, i just hope this incident is unduly forgotten. oh wells, i didtn even get to enjoy my last wk of school which i was so looking forward to! wth. i cant believe this!
anyway, chinese 'o's was kinda bleahhh and i hope its not badly done u knw, i cant afford that kinda time to study for chinese at all, anymore. its tough juggling so many subjects. :(
amaths totally ruined my life and now mom's like, STUDY AMATHS BLAHHH. and she thinks that amaths paper was easy cus some teacher told her.pfft. i'm such a horrid student i know.
ben's finally leaving with dad next wk! *whoops! i just cant wait! and everyone's going on a holiday except me cus my doc thinks its not safe and if something happens, they wont be able to reach me and i might bleed to death or smth?! oh wells, i wld'tn blame them if u have had a double dose of dengue and caught the stupid fever TWICE.

confirmation was great minus the picture taking thanks to someone who spoiled all 10 yrs for me. i wish she didtn exist,thankyouverymuch. i'm glad that all's over for now. GENESIS 2 HERE I COME! (:

colours of the wind

2006-04-20T07:06:00.001-07:00

wad a pathetic, unhappy, not-so-memorable wk it has been.
everything is so not gg well and i dont think its gonna be. :(
the good old call comes and slips rightfully in now.
--------------------------------------------------------

aye, sometimes i really have no idea wad i'm gonna do next. i want to be close, yet when i've come close, i get thrown off by the lil' stuff and blocks which obstruct my way. aye aye. AYE-deep sigh.
i really wish you could understand what i'm gg thru dc. oh wells.
--------------------------------------------------------
i really cant wait for tmr, look at your reactions and then realise tt all these few wks of waiting have not been in vain. i do yes. i do.
if i had to name a regret, tt wld be not being able to spend time with you and to really cherish the funny birthday songs we have in mind. surprise? i hope.

today has been rather bleak considering wad had happened.i just pray very hard tt all these unwanted memories we've created or caused can be wiped off clear unduly. its really difficult to see so many in auguish and in pain.
-
i feel as though everyday in school has no purpose served or anything alike. its difficult u see, to just sit thru lessons for one WHOLE day and die at the end of it all. its really tiring i have to admit.
i pray tt the 'o's do come as quickly as possible, after all, they have always said to face your fears right?
so be brave for now!
YES!
i'm growing to love 4humility more and more these days particularly tt we have bonded closer? yes, except for some ppl as u can really see O.o
iloveus!

i wish everyday was a sunday so i can spend more time with you (:

colours of the wind

2006-04-20T07:06:00.000-07:00

sinking deeper

2006-02-20T01:20:00.000-08:00

i seriously hope nth is gonna change anymore.
i am just SOOOO tired. i mean havent i had enuff?
havent i gave up enuff?
HELLO?
i guess thats more than enough sacrifices! LIKE HELLO?!
i just don't know anymore of how much more i can sacrifice.
giving up isnt very easy.

i just crosssxxxx my fingers and hope for the best!

euphoric;

2006-02-18T20:45:00.000-08:00

i am sooo nuttily happy todayyy!
19th feb 2006 is like the happiest and most memorable morning of my life! YEAHHH;

i need a new carrier bag to place all all my stuff in it. perhaps later i'll and get one.
yup.
i need to buy something to remind me of this everlasting wonderful day! :D
-crazed

anyw, mom's getting a new LV bag for the stupidest reason ever.
just because she didtn manage to buy a LV bag from europe, she's gg ever hard on dad to buy it.
oh wells, women.
i hope i dont grow up to be like her.lols.
just kidding. she's my mom, MY MOM.

okok enuff.
though its been a good day, i am still troubled over some stuff like CAMP.
my sch camp is ON the day of my retreat! (!!!) and both are compulsory!
so i have no idea which to go or HOW TO DIVIDE myself into two pcs and go for both on the same day.
i hope that if IF i have to give up sch camp, church retreat will be fun. and NOT like last year's.
PLEASE.
i really hope that i can make it for school camp! PLEASE.

ltr is gramppa's 80th bday bash at some restaurant. can't wait to go for the dinnneeerr! -yumms.
gonna meet like so many ppl ltr which is like fun! Fun! betta remember to bring my digi cam along! WEEEE.

gotta go now, so yupp, BYE.

flaunt

2006-02-14T01:08:00.000-08:00

its just kinda weird.
oh wells.

val's day again today.
and the usual sadistic me,
not doing the right stuff by buying my friends v. day gifts.

oh wells.

meeting up with some ppl in a while

gtg goodbye.

p.s what a sick post!

mothertone

2006-02-13T02:15:00.000-08:00

someone in my neighbourhood is playing some ANCIENT music and its driving me nuts.
urghhh.

i have alot of things in my mind right now. and i am in a TOTAL mess.
i have not confirmed or chosen my middle name,
i have not spoke to my godma about the coming confirmation,
i have not studied on hormones [GRR],
i hate to receive my biology test1 back tml,
i have a million things to do in a day with only 24 HOURS to do EVERY SINGLE THING.

i am messed and fessed up.
BREEEEAAAATTTTHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

OKAY.

i am so gonna explode NOW.

help!

distinctly me

2006-02-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

this is gonna be a short post.

duhh. tuition in a few mins.

this has been a bad bad bad week i suppose and i should not stay out at all.
everything has been such a failure.
SPELL FAILURE.

urgh.

i'm still sick.
oh yes.

hard frost

2006-02-08T03:14:00.000-08:00

oh such a sweet thought-
i remembered that i actually have a blog!

i must admit, holidays for me these past months from christmas have been rather good and working out better than i thought.

christmas was especially memorable, (esp the part which some one ATE on my PIANO top. so not-rolls eyes) but whatever, i went for 3 masses, one midnight, one at nine and one at 8.30am.
well, at was fun esp with my friends and .. duh. :)

for cny, was not exactly pleasant when i fell sick and had to watchthe ppl around me eat my fav foodstuff. like WTH? but still, i recovered the day be4. haha.
mass for cny was kinda funny but shant go into details abt it.

RAHHHH.

BIG EVENTS TO LOOK OUT FOR THIS YEAR.
1. CONFIRMATION!-wee :)
2. O Levels-...right
3. Trip to New York! -wee! :) :) [not confirmed]

THANK YOU GOD! muuuaahhhh.
:)

*this may be the LAST post till confirmation. :)

style

2005-11-22T20:00:00.001-08:00

wee! just a few more weeks before i move! :D
i cant wait!
hongkong was kinda fun yet,though.
bought so many things as if it was on sale or smth.
ay, i want to stay there longer if i had all the time in the world to do what i want. ha-SO NOT!

its such a boring week, hmk hmk and more hmk!
doing the geog notes reasearch now. its OH SO BORING! -yawns
so annoying.

i have seriously nothing to say at all!
bye then.

style

2005-11-22T20:00:00.000-08:00

wee

winds of admiration

2005-10-23T02:20:00.000-07:00

go dr. william tan!
wee! he made it! he did it!
3 cheers! :D

dr. tan is so cool! *ADMIRES!*
was there playing the supporting role on friday nite to sat morning.
we practically stayed awake for the entire morning!
mrs das was too cool to be true,she stayed up for the entire night until we slept from 3.45-5am to take care of us! :D
anyway, dr. tan was so cool ok! O.o
he had bruises on his fingers after 5 hours, but still carried on despite that.
until the rain came at abt 3.45am, he then stopped for awhile.
DR. WILLIAM TAN RAWKS!
*clapsclapsclapsclaps*

GO DOCTOR TAN!GO DOCTOR TAN!

reach.

2005-10-17T20:39:00.000-07:00

i don't know in what way should i put it.
118: thanks for everything. thanks for filling in the void and emptiness in my heart.
thank you for that making those eyes of yours greatly enlarged to show that you were really shocked at my nightly studies and for not getting enuff rest. :)
thank you for trying to nudge me when i was about to fall asleep.thank you for the really funny jokes you scatter around.
i love u! :)
oh, sometimes i do wish for the world to stop at that those moments.
LOOKING FORWARD TO SPENDING CHRISTMAS WITH YOU AGAIN! (:
-*just thinking.

by any foreign matter,
i have decided on a fact which brings me up with a wrisp.

memoirs of a geisha. reflections.
i guess i'll never find a book as fascinating as this again. just think about a child being overwhelmed by all the toys and candys in a candyshop.that's the way i feel about this book, a whole new world has stepped forward towards me, changing the way i feel about certain issues, looking in from a different perspective. it as a depth so deep that if you just dip your fingers, probably you'll never find it again.
the difficult childhood days of sayuri's, growing up in a tipsy house, with a dying mother and a fisherman dad, how bad can it get further? certainly towards a great extent. being sent away, in other words sold off with her sister to a place in kyoto- faraway from her hometown, which she does not know a thing about what her future holds. the gentle "betrayal" by the man whom she believed and trusted would be her adoptive father, held her tied, tied down by grave fear for when she was sent away.
her growing up years,-being tortured by the household geisha, hatsumomo-san, and being taken out of the geisha school she attended due to unconditional jealousy and hatred by hatsumomo. also,
being abandoned by her own blood sister. most importantly, the chairman, whom she feel in love with.
the young geisha years where she was undressed forcefully by the baron- her "oldersister's" Mameha's danna, and the turning point in her life where she became Mother's daughter when she sold off her self in exchange for a better fight off with hatsumomo-san.
finally, her sacrifice which she nearly betrayed herself with the Minister in the cause for her undying love to the chairman.
with the ending, so melodramatic, so soft, so wintery, so gentle, a parting never dawn apart, she finally landed in the warm, everlasting touch of the chairman as they walked down central park together. it seems like the clock has stopped and all was left, was the love they shared deep into the veins of their heart.

so beautiful a story, so deep yet lighthearted, an epic tale of a rapidly vanishing world.

the memoirs of a geisha, forever etehed in my heart.
thank you for this account of an everlasting spring to share.

withering skin beneath

2005-10-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

i am so gonna read the memoirs of a geisha again!
its a really good and warmhearted story.
ahh...
nostalgic; just as they say, nothing from the past can come alive again.
or just perhaps?

well, i guess yestd was the best day of my entire life ever since 2005 started.
i hope that it isn't just the best yet coz i wanna enjoy life as it is. OHHH.
first, early in the morning was mass! yippeeee. i love sunday masses. they're so crampy, so full and so WILD!ok, not exactly WILD, but it was kinda wild in that sense.
ohhh. then lunch was at paragon's Lawry's The PRIME ribs! i simply when wow wow with mom beside although i admit that i did that like everytime i'm there! i mean hello? the decor and staff were so disneyland haunted manison! urgh, i love that. i simply do.
LOVES!
then, i managed to finish my 600 pages of the memoirs of a geisha in 3 hours! how does that sound eh? i mean 600 is quite a sum isnt it?
WOWOOWOWOWOW!
haha. enuff of the madness!

i'm rather ratty and tatty today coz the results weren't out yet, until tomorrow!
AHHHHH! i'm getting JUMPY again! ohno.ohno.ohno.
i hate this feeling!ihate this feeling!I HATE THIS FEELING!
annoying.
-----------------------------------------------------------
[DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT ]
well, here are just 6 simple, wide words for you,
YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A DISGRACE.
don't understand? that's just too bad.
p.s: check the dictionary,loser, its faster that way, loser.
for pete's sake, stop acting like an angel.
-----------------------------------------------------------
I FEEL BETTER NOW.

;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

sorry but its the last episode of romance d'amour,
so yeah, gotta go!

holiday riddles

2005-10-12T14:04:00.000-07:00

here i'm waiting for jeanette's reply and here i'm blogging away.
it seems forever for sunday to come and thereafter, monday to come when i can finally go to school, doesnt it?
well, well, i simply guess so?
nothing really interests me now, for the time being, be it going online and stuff!
what's wrong with me!eeeyah!

the answer: isimplydontknowanddontcare! :D

i smell like a full-blown cinnamon apple bun now,
after using mom's cinnamon shampoo coz my shampoo practically ran out.
her shampoo is so freaking thick and has a strrronng cinnamon smell. :/ icant believe it actually costs like more than $50 bucks for a weird smelling shampoo. urgh.
mom, we should start saving up,perhaps investing on CHEAP shampoos with nice apple/watermelon bursts? teeheehee.

anyways, mom's home early today, considering the fact that she claims to be fanatically busy today.
we might be going to IKEA! weee! then i can check out my supplies there for my new roommmm X)
ohhhhoooo.

for now, i'm laid back into my seat and wait for christmas to come!
but first, i have to MOVE IN TO MY NEW HOUSE!

DEEEDUMMMDEEEDDEETWEETS!

just the same old me

2005-10-10T16:43:00.000-07:00

yes.
perhaps its just us, the untrue ones.
or perhaps?
i just dont understand.period.
why some people just treat others like trash when they themselves just simply, in layman terms, are trash?
how holistic.
maybe i should not talk abt it anymore.
it'll do me just so,ah,well.

i cross my fingers and hope that for my eoys pts i'll get less than 10. seriously.
i dont care anymore if i flunk my amaths and stuff but, lit is my only hope!
for the first freaking time of my entire assesments, i managed to finish lit on the dot! ah!
talk abt improvement.
if mrs. r. tan hears abt this, she'd be so glad and fly up into the moon?
creative-smirks.

this morning was hilarious.
i seriously wont ever go to school in that kind of situation AGAIN.
hear that, robyn? -haha.
okay, i'll never ever talk about it AGAIN.
so as to stop adding salt into my poor wound.
P.S. 118: i have never blogged in a such a lenghty way for quite some time eh?

talking about my results, i am scared.
really.
for the bloody first time in my entire life, I AM SCARED!
haha.
if i can hit the freaking 10pts mark,
woohoo, uncle jc is not gonna hound me down ever!
__________SMILES__________
oh.great!

okay,i've got a PERFECT plan for my room!
i am going do something crazy but neat.
:D
that's all i'm telling you for now.
and,
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY NEW MAID!
i hope her name's amy.
hehehe.

oh yes, i have started on a new book, oh the joy!
i hope i'll be able to finish up the rape of nanking and start on memoirs of a geisha like soon?
yayyay. oh the doubly joy.

i was surprised that i was not unhappy abt it and i suppose you are asking why am i writing this since i want to cancel it away. reason being: its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. anyway, i guess its a blessing to have you around ddc.you are such a joy and i am glad god has created you to bring happiness to my life. i dunno wads going to become of me if you're gone.

i feel much better now.
i have a list of what to read during the holidays:
*Memoirs of a geisha!
*The rape of nanking
*Princess Diaries
*Agatha Christie Collections
*Lolita Rose
*My sisters keeper (absolute MUST!)

i cant wait for everything. oh, stop being impatient edwina. :D
nope, esp when it comes to the long-awaited TIM BURTON'S CORPSE BRIDE!
yayneesss!
and steamboat with em,sil and jo.
irritating jo muz wait for your auspicious date to go out!

as always, SUNDAYS ALWAYS SEEM SO FAR AWAY, COZ ITS THE BEST DAY OF THE WEEK!
look, look, its ONLY monday and i'm thinking of sunday?
seriously, AM I CRAZY?

no.

sayonara!
goodbye.

weathered grey

2005-10-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

i have everything.
i need everything.
that's the world deep inside of me.

i have to go down to orchard again perhaps tml?
to get that little flower.

EXAMS ARE OVER.
ihavenothingmoretosay.
wad can i?
hahs. gotta go now.
goodbye

blackcurrents- strewn

2005-09-20T06:24:00.000-07:00

i hate to say this, but i'm not dieting, mhel.
-dashes the forefingers

i'm on the verge of collapsing into pieces.
i have absolutely no idea at all what to say tml. perhaps going in there empty handed is the only way now.yeah RIGGGHT.
god help!
ayyy.
i need information desperately.
3H WILL WIN AT ALL COSTS;
duhhhh.

at this rate i'm going, i'm never going to end this.

*ps 118. i want to come, but yet i dun.
do you get me?
i'll always have you in my heart.
-little raspers.

if something comes your way,
never hesitate,
for a long, long time has to come

if your dreams are smashed,
and the world is coming to an end,
just wait and love,
for beauty and sweet

will shine.
just when the love has died,
the soul is choked in bitterness,
the breath is taken away,

you never learn to love again.

_oh baby, the addiction of your love.
no love,
no denial,
no stopping.

here i'm waiting.
just for you.

perhaps its stature.
perhaps its money.
perhaps its nothing at all.

an illusion.
or me?

__________________________________
god knows wad i'm crapping about.

will someone just slap me and yell at me,
saying
"edwina goh, if you don't study hard enough,
you will have to drop amaths. if you drop amaths,
you'd be left with 6 puny subjects. and with this 6 pathetic subjects,
so many people will be irritated and disappointed in you.
mom will cut your allowance because you dont deserve to get any due to your plain dumb brain,
dad will stop buying you nice food, grandma will kill you for not doing well at all. aunty helen is gonna shoot you will that pistol. and the chain goes on. see how its important.
and if you still dun work hard, you will never make into tjc and break some stupid DUMB FREAK RECORD for not making into the top8 jcs in singapore. your cousins will laugh, edwina."

i'm hungry! seriously.
i need:
-that bowl of sumptous mee sua from goodwood park hotel
-large hawaiian pizza
-10pc chicken meal from kfc
-2 large bowls of mushroom soup from alfresco italian rest.
-1 bowl of ramen from haruku japanese restaurant.
-1kg worth of famous amos cookies.
-1 large tub of haagen daz ice cream in hazelnut.
-1 large tub of ben & jerry's brownie topped chocolate ice cream.

nice nice nice.

i'm so sick of eating icecream mooncakes mom bought.everyday is mooncakes and more! wth.
and i'm so gonna catch that culprit who ate 3/4 of my shangri-la 4 yolk mooncake and the whole of my chocolate mooncake.
dun ever let me catch you or you're dead la.
so DEAD.

blown like a bubble

2005-09-20T04:27:00.000-07:00

ahhh! finally updated, like in MONTHS?
hahah.
its been so long since i came back alive!
lol.

tml is the debate- correction CHINESE debate.
why chinese?!
i hate chinese debates.
i cant speak chinese for nuts!
its just gonna be humiliating!
the name is desperado.
when you cant find enough information to keep ur debate alive.

HUNGER STRIKE!
declaration1on1:
MY MOM LOVES TO STARVE HER DAUGHTER,me
THERE'S NO FOOD AT HOME,
NO ONE AT HOME,
NO NOTHING AT HOME!
i'm sick, dying and hungry with trillions of work to complete.
AHHH!
I NEED FOOD NOW!

_____you are the light of my life_______
PS 118.
well, things are getting much better between us! -leaps!
thanks for brighting my dim sunday.
I look forward to every meeting with you!
-ode to joy of mankind!

adeiu, till then we meet again!

bubble muffle

2005-07-29T01:17:00.000-07:00

in sch now :)
using mrs koh's com

i am gonna sleep!

hahahahah gotta go now :) BYE

wantoned life

2005-07-21T01:50:00.000-07:00

i am sooo excited! :D
melody and valerie are gonna be my first batch of mentees tml!
melody is sooo funny :D
ahhhh!

okay, nothing can get me down today!
coz my zen is finally here and i'm enjoying every single minute of it,
listening to the radio, which surprisingly, does not function clearly.
but, then again, i dun care. its the reception prob, not mine neither my zen's :D
ahhhh.

right now i'm mugging reading and studying like mad for the tests tml :D
ahhhh!

goodabye!

-dis-missed

2005-07-20T01:09:00.000-07:00

okay.
here i'm!
HERE I AM!
yayness :)

I AM GETTING MY ZEN TODAY :D
(crosses fingers)
how de lovely!

anyways, back to the topic of LIFE, haha
so spastic.

yestd_
piano exam was stupid coz i played one of the scales terribly wrong :(
i happily played a D scale on my left but i was playing in on the right.
bloody. horribly. BAD.
then went to sch during recess.
then it was erm, the english competition blah blah blah.
crap.
saw the time wrongly,
so i rushed like mad to finish it, only to realize i had 20minutes more.
pffft.!

wadeva.
oral was crowded. !!
got mrs. koh for examiner.
she was funnie, kept smiling at me.
oh yes.
i guess my oral was quickest to end.
hohohohohohohoho.

today_
was really FUNNEI.
during mrs. lim's period,
asked her some questions and she beat around the bush in sengkang[exagg] and asked me back the same question.
:)
how "contructive"
:/
she didnt even get the clue that we did not understand what on earth she was saying.
oh wells, teachers are teachers.

assembly was a big joke!
i love 1E :D
their performance was good.
way to go! :)
haha. - clapps.

i lead a happy nappy life!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

things to do:
-read cheena book! [55morepgs]
-mrs. tan 1mth owed compos
-biology chapter on ?!
-emaths 5 questions
-amaths 10questions
-aspen hmk
-kinematics graphs :)
-piano lesson [buy NEW grade 5 theory book!yipps!]
-zen buying!

WOOTS.
life is so beautiful :D

not perfect :)

2005-07-20T01:06:00.000-07:00

yesss

WANTED

2005-07-16T14:58:00.000-07:00

okay, edwina's going to be dead at 5.45pm today!
REST IN PEACE.

i am so gonna die today,
oh yes.
DIE DIE DIE.

ahhH!

dinner at ritz carlton!
sucks.

goodbye.

magic

2005-07-14T16:26:00.000-07:00

okay, the investiture was not THAT bad after all. :D
i think i am just gonna disappear from this world one of these days.
:/
my head's spinning,
my head's feeling hot.
my mind's tune off.

is that considered having a fever?

lol.
:(

schedule of the week:
fri-cca; tuition
sat-council meeting; church interview; dinner at ritz carlton (stupid freak)
sun- church; aspen; dinner at ding tai fung!

mon- tuition
tues- cca meeting; piano exam; ORAL.
weds- piano
thurs- tuition
fri-cca; tuition
sat-outing(farms.); tuition; mrs tan; church
sun- church.

how am i supposed to buy my new pencil case?!
my new bag?!

and dad, i'm eyeing for the creative zen once u touch down :D
haha.

dad's coming back next weds!
haha. on the same day as my piano lesson which means,
HE CAN BUY MY ZEN most prob ON THAT DAY!!!
woowww meeee moooo!
WEEEEONGS!!!

too happy.-

just juice

2005-07-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

dead. dead die dead!
ahhhh!

stupid friendster,
wont allow me to upload any junkie pics,
so now i have this SMILEY face :/
so pissed.

pissed!

anyway, i'm feeling ~~hot~~, feverishly hot.
okay, gotta go now, its 3pm!!!

things to do:
-GEOG! super urgent!
-LIT! super urgent!
-ENGLISH COMPOS! SUPER SUPER URGENT!

missing puzzle pieces

2005-07-12T15:57:00.000-07:00

beneath the skin is a different me,
a different person,
i dunno who i am when i'm that person.
everything changes,
my views,
my life,
myself.
dun try to stop me,
coz u're destroying my inner self,
me, myself and i.
i just wanna be me.

lalala.
wad a tiring day,
i just wanna sleep and relax,
hah!
but cant.
i'm rushing for my sicko geog proj.
i wonder when can i rest!
everyday of the week i'm online,
rushing for info,
ay, my life.

yestd's rehersal was boring and quite, well, unnessessary actually,
wasting my time.
:(
i cud do a million other things while in there.
urggghhh.
the school's becoming my 2nd home,
i wonder which is my home sometimes,
due to the fact that i have been returning home from school late.
ha.
some ppl are just plain lucky,
they can go early.
i'm sooo jealous.
:/

my life's so miserable.
i cant sleep early,
coz a thousand other things are awaiting.
all these kinda relates to my life as the poem i wrote yestd,
a never-ending night.
i can create poems!
:O
-marvels.

i'm sooo into crapping i guess,huh?
haha
okay, gotta work again,
so long!
:D

feverishly stressed
i hate the way i'm living

london bridge is falling down

2005-07-12T00:57:00.000-07:00

i'm collapsing!
ahhhh.
TIRED.
TIRED!

i need a new:
-pencil case
-file
-wallet
-mng shirt

i need to SLEEP.

pissed

2005-07-10T16:38:00.000-07:00

i haven been so pissed in my entire my life until now.
i dun understand.
i just dont.

i hate u.
u brainless FOOL

u brainless FOOL

pissed

loopholes in ur sentences

2005-07-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

:D.
just read some stupid post by a really stupid and stuck up there teenager.
how stupid plus contradicting! lol.
i wonder ___________________*___*
haha.

anyway, today was quite mad but fab.
ate with mom at the chin mee chin coffeehouse then went to church for that meeting :O
for loads of hours (?)
haha.

and smsed dad tons of times.
guess wad, the stupiiidddd ipod there is like S$1200 ?!!!
harps.
gasps!
i thot singapore is like completely ex already.
now?!!
then went for mass and sat beside this old lady :D who kindly let me into the pew and was very satisfied with the place until,
this mother with her kid came to sit in front of me.
hah.wonder why? this kid, came with her bf and this kid, apparently 14-15 started making out, ahem
kissing in church in front of ME and her mother was just smiling, ahem smiling as though she's damn proud of her kid making out in church or smth.
i mean which perverted parent would just smile SMILE when ur underaged kid is kissing in public, much less a religious place, say a church?!!
for god's sake, u dun just sit there, look at them and SMILE.
dung. parents these days do "understand" their child's abnormal behaviour, do they?
ahem.

_yesterday_
new timetable.
gross! we have a yucky new teacher. GREAT. :D[spastic]
had cca.
i'm so sick, burnt out and dead!dang!
ay, i dun feel like attending the 8thaug thing.
oops.
was supposed to go for the church of st mary and the angels (?) youth concert or smth with mom,
coz mrs koh "recommended" it and all, anyway was free wad.
haha, was supposed to go and meet her and mrs chan there but i ended up, well, sleeping due to the lack of sleep :/ and slept until 6am this morning.
oh wells, too bad.
i bet they had a bad time without me anyway. [HA!so meannn.]

ayay.

i realised i'm losing weight again. god should just have pity on ME, and let me gain some pathetic freaking weight.
hahha.
i was so happy when i gain 2.2kg after the hols, but now, i'm only 42.5kg?!!!! heellloo?
wth?! i have lost ahem. o.5kg from my usual weight of 4yrs, 43kg.
i mean who loses weight so quickly?!
urghhh.

-retard machines-.makes my life insane.

lemons in sugar

2005-07-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

hypocritical.
thats what the title of this post came from.
2 ppl pops into my mind directly.
hypocritical.

one's all high and mighty, i-think-i-know-all and i-am-smarter-than-you kinda person.
whilst the other is all, i-dont-believe-you-coz-i-dont-have kinda person.

hahah.
hypocrites.

my back's aching like mad coz of the side effect of my medicine,
and now i'm suffering thanks to a sicko who sprayed a smelly freaking perfume in front of me.
to the person: oh, THANKS.
didtn go for amaths coz i was drowsy and all.
plus i cud not see clearly,
so mom fetched me home to r.i.p.
hahahs.

thanks to a big-fat mouth,
i have to give mrs lim and jan $ for the donations coz of THAT big bogger mouth .
i suggest ppl who dun know anything should just shut their trap and all.
if u wanna donate then donate la,
drag other ppl down for WHAT.
psycho.
if u think u're so smart,
den do it urself.

underneath below that yellowing skin

2005-07-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

i wonder wad on earth am i doing online at 10.12am.
hohoho.

was supposed to have breakfast with mom and the moltly grp at kiliney @ orchard. but somehow,
i missed tat coz mom had to go for a meeting. :(
wadeva!
ltr going for ice cream with ben perhaps to taste YUMMY-licious iccee creamie! i wanna gorge on new zealand's natural/gelato/anderson's or AWLFULLY CHOCOLATE.
i love awfully chocolate at katong coz its so yummy!! mom and i discovered it on sat while walking arnd finding a suitable cake for festa! :D it was goody good!

now gotta eat my yummy breakfast!

thats the koppercoin i've been waiting for

2005-07-03T18:13:00.000-07:00

bad bad news,
dad cant find my zen.
thanks!
thanks for that mann.

WOOTS.
tuition just now wasnt that bad.
:D
thanks to melly who kept me company.
took 76 back to kovan with her than met mom at the kovan cold storage.
waited and waited until she finally was done with her sunday "shopping" for the week.
lol.
thereafter, went over to my new house! :D
i cant wait to move. who am i kidding? rigghhtt.
moving = more work. [packing]
and thats gonna ruin edwina's PERFFFEEECCCT life.
mom brought me to a nice looking/designed home near my new house for fun.
OMGG. it was so damn COOL.
cool.
COOL!!!
okays.
i mean it.
i do
oh yes!
WAD THE.
i want that house!!!
the bathroom is so COOL and COOL
and there's a built-in closet,
and there's a cool READING rooom,
a COOL COOL COOL piano room. :D
and absolute PERRFFFEEECCCTT house for the absolutely totally PEEERRRRFFFEEEECCCT edwina.
:D
listening tong hua on penelope's blog. :D
i love my little penny:D
and the present :D

no-nos

2005-07-02T23:15:00.000-07:00

the moe excel fest thing was quite fun but tiring,
considering the fact that we'were advertising!
standing with the board and "inviting" people to visit our booth for 2 solid hours!
wanna try?!

overall it was alright la.
:)

ate at jai thai for lunch at 2 plus,
was freakingly- HUNGRY.
i didtn even eat or drink since 7am,
so yeah,
ate and drank loads.
:D including my fav- SUBWAY!!!
:D
now u'll know what to treat me :D

okays, so now deb and i are in lena's grp
happy coz we're still in the same grp,
sad coz,....
well,.
wadeva.
next week's the big thing- INTERVIEW!
i really hope i can pass through or i can kiss confirmation and holy fam goodbye.
pleaseeee....
and jennan is at home resting coz she's just recovered frm dengue.
FATALLY dengue.
:s
poor gal.

bad news-
dad cant find my CREATIVE ZEN there,
where he is NOW.
freak!
ahhh!

i am so freaaakkked out.

from now on,
i'll not care anymore.
:D
ahhhh, eased.

gtg,
mom's screaming for me to do me work.

mothers?
that's what they're for,
SCREAMING.
thank god i dun have a mom like HER.

so dead

2005-07-01T23:56:00.000-07:00

in a few hours, i'm dead.
oh yes.
all thanks to mef.
urggghh.
:/
i am so gonna be tortured there.
why me?!
well, thats the price to pay for being me.

HELLO GOD?

listening to she will be loved right now. hahs. :)
nice.

the council investiture was quite fun,
saw gen there!! GEN!
:D :D
she's the DIRECTOR of her council :D
cool lala.

i dun feel like going anywhere tml at ALL.
i just wanna stay home and hide.
:(

things to do:
-emaths! [holiday hmk]
-english 4 letters.
-english 1 compo [LOST]
-lit [prose book]
-geog proj. [due!]
-theory pract!
-practical pract! [exams!!]
-geog wbk
-cat. quiz
-moe fest.
-church.
-mits 2nd day speech!! [submission to yuen by 6thjuly]
-social studies [wrksht]
-youth day posters for mits. [die!]

oops. i am so in trouble.

2005-07-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

dun act like u are the QUEEN.

2005-06-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

i hate u.
who do YOU think YOU are?

u're soooo not the queen.
dramps.
why should i listen to u?
HMMM?

get a life LLT.
and get out of MINE.

pissed.
oh yeah.

u're no angel.
just a plain evil-devil.
baroness macveiler.

oh wells,
I AM MOVING HOUSE! :(
is that supposed to sound happy or wad?

i live a life nobody wants.

i am the reason.

2005-06-23T16:21:00.000-07:00

hi pops!

i'm HOME from that stupid checkup. :)
guess wad,
I DUN HAVE TO GO BACK THERE ANYMORE OR WEAR THE STUPID BONE BRACE AT NIGHT! yay!-leaps*

morning went to sch and met menaga when she came down.
:)
robyn came afterwards, and were decorating the lib.
!!
i cant wait for the investiture!-beams*
after weds afternoon, i'm officially NOT under the tyrant anymore!!
yay!

CONGRATS TO ANISZAH!
wee!

:)
:)
:)

i am too happy to write.
:)
:)
:)
:0
:0

2005-06-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

oh now u tell me!
great.

i spend my entire life wondering ifs.
i admit i hate to be in a country without u,
but then, when i am with u,
i feel annoyed and uncomfortable.
oh lord, what is happening to me?

the more i calm down and think,
the more problems i have.
hi god, do u hate me?
why then?

i need some sunlight,
literally, SUNLIGHT!
i need to see things from a different angle i guess.
i know i have to.

i am all sorrowful inside.
:(
wells.

ltr i am gonna see the hse dad's been eyeing on AGAIN.
grr.
i spent alot of time on my room decorating it till its comfy and all,
and now u are telling me u are
MOVING.
thanks,
thanks a whole lot.

i am such a negative pig, am i?

things to do:
-amaths! that stupid paper. [who gives a damn man]
-3 english summaries correction. hitler, holocaust, austria. [woahhh.]
-2 poems in touch with fire. [oh yes, like i am some soldier who died in england.]
-bio chapter 8. [oh yes i know]
-mits speech notes.[mince me!]
-update pics for lola
-meeting
-rehersal
-theory pract.
-piano exams.
-hair snips!

butterfly

2005-06-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

oh yes, i'm supposed to absorb all these terrifying news and accept it.
oh yes.
i realised i'm supposed to. thanks alot for telling me that.
i am supposed to know what u're thinking.
yeah.
for heaven's sake.

i dun wanna accept it.

i just dont.
u ppl dunno how i feel do u?

i dunno.
i dunno.
i dunno!
i wanna be a butterfly and fly away from this horrible life and fly into ur arms.
safe in there,
i will never be upset again.
why?
i lie in bed each night,
my mind thinking about ifs and reality.
i wanna take u away with me
and to a place where pain and anxiety no longer exists.
i wish.
i wish everyday.
every moment i close my eyes,
i only see ur face.

but in the end, it all sums up to zero,
an empty dream,
pain once more.
if only.. i was a butterfly,
i cud fly away,
far away,
into ur arms,
and we would fly to paradise,
coz i know i'm safe with u.
u alone and only u.

i love all these dreams.

LONELY PLANET.

i cant wait.
counting days: 5days
counting hrs: hah!
counting.

U ARE MY ONLY PARADISE, MY SOLITUDE, MY DREAM, MY HEARTBEAT.

take me away. fly away;;

i dunno if its good or bad.

boulevard of broken dreams

2005-06-21T02:06:00.000-07:00

tell me more
tell me more

was talking to yann just now abt desperate hsewives.

aye, my week's a total mess!
weds- dental appointment
thurs- SGH appointment and aunt helen's dinner treat. :(
fri- rehersal and MEETING!
sat-bbq for lao shuang's bday at sentosa.
sun- church and tuition!

club medd was FUN.
bought nike slip ons, $88 dollars and cds.
thats all i'm happy bout.
plus the sauna!
and breakfast.
slept with mom and she woke me up 6 times in 2hrs.
haHA.
lets talk bout TORTURE.
ks, i'm off to have a long bath.
aye,aye.
TIRED.

dinner soon. :D

i miss u so.
i miss u.
i miss u till my heart's twisting everytime i think about u.
i miss u sunshine.

definite change

2005-06-18T13:24:00.000-07:00

well, i guess its time for me to change the slacky way of writing my blog.

i shiver everytime i see u,
though ur jokes make me laugh,
somehow i feel there's a distance,
a long and far distance.
the age gap?
but why can u make me laugh like no one else can?
why can u make me feel that every day is worth living?
i wish that u were my angel.
everytime i fall,
its u who pick me up and lift me to be me once more.
u mean so much to me,
my life,
my strength,
my everything.
my world revolves around u.
i ask myself,
without u,
will my life be happier?

i dunno.
i dun wanna know,
coz i want to treasure all the memories,
everything,
till u are no longer with me.

thank you for bringing meaning and laughter back into my life.
sunshine. :)

i feel alsleep last night at 2am,
listening to the music blasting from my laptop
while trying to complete a speech for MITS and my geog holiday hmk.
ahhh, there i was,
falling alsleep in front of my laptop,
i guess multi-tasking takes special effort? hoho.
at 11plus, josh came online and we chatted for around 2hours,
until i fell dead alsleep.
so i was trying to do 4things at once,
well.
i'm supposed to meet jie kai and co. at clarke quay at 3pm,
but in the end,
we decided to go wild and meet at 7.30pm.
haha.
we're gonna dine at some restaurant in the esplanade after that and take a walk at suntec.
so its 4of us, jie kai, clarence, bianca and me.
oh the joy of eating. :)
gonna meet bianca at 6.45pm:)

yestd went out with sarah wee :)
haah funneh brat.
she was so mad la!
met her at the kovan mrt at 12.30pm and this gal screamed my name when she saw me.
so embarrasing! LOL.
anyway,
we went to heeren and i bought this roxy army green belt which was so nice. :)
wanted to buy the ripcurl slippers but...aye.
sarah bought this ripcurl shirt which was like $55!
hah, some ppl are so rich la.
ate at taka talking hall that beef stew from japan which costs a whopping $12.
then shopped at fox and mng.
i am gonna buy that tube and mng basic!
we then rushed to paragon coz sarah wanted to buy the crumpler bag but in the end, went back to heeren and she bought the roxy bag.
ayay.

swimming ltr with nen and xuan :)
my lil angels ;0
ayayayay.

I WANT MY CREATIVE ZEN MICRO ;)

maddox.

2005-06-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

just returned home from my lil outing with jie kai & co.!
was fun filled i tell ya. :)
went out at 4.30pm instead to meet bianca at plaza sing and trained to clarke quay.
so headed down to esplanade and ate at my humble house!! nice nice!
pan-roasted Kobe beef tenderloin with black truffle white soya sauce,suckling pig with miso clam broth nice:)
den took a bus to RAFFLES CITY and shopped la.
clarence went to buy his new goggles from arena while i bought some soapy thing from crabtree and evelyn. cool. :)
nth much to buy so walked around aimlessly and went to subway for my fav. SUBWAY BREAD!!!

okay, gtg pack my stuff for tml now, cya!

toenails and spicy food.

2005-06-17T09:40:00.000-07:00

MY DARLING SUNSHINE IS HOME! i cant wait to meet my sunshine in 2 days! LOL. ithink she must be suffering from jetlag, my poor darling sunshine.
i love my sunshine. :)
she brings back laughter and meaning to my life!

dad promised to buy the CREATIVE ZEN MICRO for me!i'll get it prob. next mth when he returns.
YAY!!

gtg now.

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Been on radio/tv?	yeah.
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God?	yupp.
Satan?	NO!
Santa?	good question. :)
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Do you think God has a gender?	...
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Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?	hohoh.
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Your favourite inside joke?	...
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That haunted you?	matt
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That you laughed at?	matt
That laughed at you?	HO/.
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That you thought about?	SUNSHINE!
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japan

2005-06-17T01:32:00.000-07:00

i feel lost, lost, LOST.
completely.

i miss the wonderful time i had and shared with the grp whilst in japan,
i miss the japanese not-spicy-at-all CURRY,
i miss the cool weather,
i miss the fun time at the world expo,
i miss the fun fun fun time at the world expo shop, pushing and shoving and hitting!
i miss the disney rides, esp ITS A SMALL WORLD.[haha]
i miss the food!
i miss the $25 subway ride,
i miss the big bus,
i miss the summer festival night market,
i miss harajuku,
i miss nagoya,
i miss tokyo,
i miss hotel nikko toyohashi,
i miss hotel grand palace,
i miss waking up at 3.30am [singapore time],
i miss the steamboats,
i miss the rush-hr shopping in harajuku,
i miss the night debriefs,
i miss the funny laughter on the bus,
i miss the mini mad chit chats,
i miss the ravings on korea though we were in japan,
i miss tomomi-san,
i miss hiroko-san,
i miss that elvis look-a-like bus driver,
i miss the restaurant which we had 2 meals at,
i miss everything,
i miss the yen,
i miss the long queues at the expo,
i miss the japanese people talking,
i miss the politeness of the japanese,
i miss the cool looking cyber phones,
I MISS JAPAN.
I MISS JAPAN!!!

well, i think mrs. lee is absolutely right,
"when u leave school, its not about what your teacher taught u, its the wonderful memories like these which will accompany you when u leave school."

i miss all the wonderful short moments,
although it was only for a very snappy 6days,
I ENJOYED MY TRIP.
going to japan wasn to shop,
but to learn about the other cultures,
the japanese culture,
the world culture.

in contrast to the wonderful, polite and gentleness of the japanese,
singapore is eh-hmm, not even half compared to the japanese.
rude, crude, curt and foul languages,
isnt it a form of "in" language?
i just dont understand,
why some people would abuse their blogs to hurl horrible languages and claim that they are in the right? are singaporeans that thick-skinned? i'm shocked.
i know its biased to compare us with japanese.
young children i saw a few days ago were hurling crude very crude words to each other. WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO SOCIETY? children as young as 5 years old are already so crude!
if the japanese children can be so polite, why cant our singaporean children do the same? is it because we are being protected? or overly protected? so, when others scold us, we must immediatly retort back in fury? is there a need?
i am shocked. completely. in awe. i am so proud of singapore, a developed and organised country, but what is this? arent people who are educated, [as MOST children and teens are] supposed to be civilised and caring and polite?
i mean, even the simplest of things, DRESSING. people can happily wear their pajamas out at 10am and without any shame, bring their entire clan out in that...costume?!
and, why must people talk so LOUDLY as if the party the are talking to are DEAF?
i know that singapore is aiming and achieving to be world class, but on the very basic border, people of singapore should develop their own style and stop copying. copying and copying. from japanese bold outfits, to korean, to hk, to taiwan to american and all.
well, though the singapore population is dropping, i have been thinking seriously about migrating.
i guess at around 20-30plus, i would try to migrate. to of course japan :) the place is for humans to stay, without any doubts araised.

HM.

>>>>>back to blogging>>>>>>>
if u think i dunno wad is going on, u're wrong. very wrong.
u backstabbed, then u lied.
i dun understand, why u are so desperate.
DESPERATE.
well, wadeva u have said,
i remember to treat it like dirt,
just like the way u treat others.
hypocrite.

finally!after more than 1mth, my sunshine is arriving home in 2 hours!
my darling!
WOOTS! WELCOME BACK!

2005-05-31T06:28:00.001-07:00

proves that i studied for CHINESE EXAM!